Update ^_^

I know lately all I have been doing is posting pictures. That's because I haven't really had time to really blog. But it seems like I get more comments on those than I do when I actually blog. xD

So a lot has been on my mind lately. And I've been uber stressed. Mainly because I have so much to do. Two projects. Finals and EOCT. SATs and AP exams. And making sure I get this counselour job at this summer camp. I just can't imagine how my Senior year will be. =/

Then on top of all of that there is one situation that has me very confused. And the other one, well, let's just say I'm one of the biggest fuck ups ever. Sigh. Definitely no love in this air. Completely stale. xD

So from all of this I have an ulcer from stress! =0 It hurts to even eat. Ugh. So tomorrow I'm staying home from school with Mother. I'm finaly going to get my permit and then we're going to have a Saw movie marathon! Or a Harry Potter one, because I can't find the Saw ones online. =/

The only things I'm looking forward to is going to New York after school lets out and then spending summer in Atlanta. Hopefully I'll be stayinmg there and I can convince Mother to let me go to my old school so I can graduate with at least two of my best friends.

I am obsessed with this song! How is everyone doing?

Do It/ TY; Nelly Furtado.

I ♥ HP!

Last weekend we went to the mall and I got to get two shirts. Both on Clearence from Hot Topic. Seeing that I'm such a dork, I love Harry Potter, but hey, who doesn't? Today was an awesome day actually. Until I got home of course. Then I started thinking wayy too hard. Quite annoying.

Times like these, dark times, they do funny things to people. They can tear them apart.

Blurr

Today was such a blur. Just full of bitching. pictures. love notes. roses. && of course thinking.

Likee, Idk.

I took a practice SAT out of my 2010 study SAT book. I failed that ish. I don't think I'll be going to NYU. I PRAY I at least make it to CCNY. If not either, Idk wtf I'ma do. Seriously. I got like the effin lowest score ever. Sigh, wtf am I gonna do. I got my permit test this Saturday, next SaturdayI got SATs. Then the Friday after that I got AP exams. Then one free week. And then Thursday and Friday I have finals and EOCT. Sigh. SO MUCH. Talk about, the life of a junior. I should soo write a book on that. Among all of that, I'm thinking wayy too much. Sigh.

However I did get to get some chill time. Chelsea, Nicholas, and I went swimming today. Later, Chelsea's boyfriend came too. But he didn't swim. They look adorable though. :) I forgot to take pictures! Darn! Lol.

Someone else did make me happy today. But their name will not be given. The end. ♥

They call me little monster


How is everyone's week coming along?

Atlanta ♥

Man I really miss it there. Like, just going back, I realized the trees are greener, the air is cleaner, the people THINK. Sigh. But all is good because Nicholas and I will be spending our sumemr up there. I will be working at the summer camp on the weekdays and hopefully I can find another job during the weekends. Either way I'll be up there with friends.

I went to the NYU meeting and I re-learned everything I already knew. Lol. I just pray to God, I get into the university. My life would be set after that. Then after that I went to my best friend's house and I went to her interview thing for this documentary. She models. :) Then we went to the mall and took pictures and were all ninja like on the Asians! Man I miss seeing Asians! So then we went back to her house and watched Woulverine. It was my first time seeing it, and I loved it. It was sooo messed up though! We started to watch Princess and the Frog, but then I had to leave. :(

When I got home I relaxed with the family. I missed them so freaking much. I just realized that I didn't even get any pictures with them. Ugh. But anyway, me and my uncle watched Zombieland. That movie is SOOO hilarious! At least with my uncle narrating it. I would definitely recommend seeing that movie if you haven't already. We started to watch Men Who Stare At Goats, but either I was really tired, or it was really boring, because I went up to bed.

But now I am back home in hell hole. :) Sigh one more month. And then one more year. I am counting down!

Cherry On Top Award.

Thank you so much Jennifer for giving me this award! :)


List 3 things I love about myself:
-I can screamo sing. xD
-I have mad awesome soccer skills. :)
-When I'm aiming for my goal, I really throw myself into it. :)
Post a picture I love:



Tag five people to pass this award to:
-Berry
-Melanie
-Tianna
-Cassiopeia
-Uh, I Think I'm Stuck


Today was pretty drama filled. Sigh. But I'm going to Atlanta tomorrow. I get to at least see Alycia. How fucking awesome right? :) Tomorrow is 4/16. It's the Day Of Silence. On the National Day of Silence hundreds of thousands of students nationwide take a vow of silence to bring attention to anti-LGBT name-calling, bullying and harassment in their schools. I've never been harrased about it to the extreme, thank Lord. But I'm fighting for everyone who has.

Bright Side Award. :)

Thank you Berry fot giving me this adorable award! Lol. :)

1.Give a top 10 list of the things that make you happy.
-My Best Friends; [Alycia/Sarah/Jennifer&Tianna]
-Soccer
-Music [especially Screamo when I'm uber pissed. Lol]
-Rootbeer. :)
-Photography
-When people give me nice long bear hugs. :)
-Tacos xD
-Blogger
-Teddie
-Late Night Phone Convos.

2.Give a top 5 list of trivia or facts about yourself
-I am an anarchist.
-I pretty much hate all the people I don't know.
-I have trust issues.
-I am an adrenaline junkie.
-I am obsessed with NYU.

3.Share the award with only 5 friends and ask them to do the same thing.
-Tianna
-Jennifer
-Audrey
-Sher
-Heather

5.Link the blogs you choose and link the blog of the person who awarded you.
-Done. :)

I Am Single

Yes, it's true. She wasn't happy, and if she was, she didn't show it. It didn't last long at all, and even though it's over, I hope me and her can be friends. At the same time, I can honestly say that I'm a bit happy about it. Like something lifeted off my shoulders. I was the only one trying. But it'll all be okay. There has to be one decent girl out there. :)

On the bright side I will be going back up to Atlanta for like, a day. Lol. NYU personally invited me to attend one of their information sessions since I've been stalking them like crazy. Lol. They travel the US for the people who can't come to NY. Even though I will be going up there anyway in either May or August. :)

How has everyone been doing? :)

Fernandina Beach

I love Fernandina Beach. I wanna get a beach house there. The water was cold, but the sun made it awesome. We even went to the beach during the night and layed down in the sand and looked up at the stars. Absolutely beautiful. We had gotten the cameras you have to develop so I will post more pictures later. :)

The Blond Lizzie

I was watching America's Next Top Model with Mother earlier this week and you know they obviolusly have all the major top designers on there. So Mother says, "You know Blaze, you should really be studying these since you want to work on Seventeen Magazine and be a journalist and all." So I'm like, yea... yea I really need to get on top of my stuff. Lol. It's weird because most of the time I'm more tomboyish. The most make up I've put on is eyeliner. I can't even put lipstick on right. Haha. I also don't always like wearing dresses and heels. I rather wear baggy clothes or skinny jeans, and the occasional skirt. I just hate being girly. But I'm going to have to start studying this, and seeing that I'm already 16, I'm kind of late.

My goal to be a magazine journalist/ editor was inspired by Cosmo Girl. However, that magazine was closed. I went through depression for like two weeks after that. That magazine just changed my life. So what's the second best? [to me] Seventeen Magazine. Well anyway I was looking at these designers called Phillipe & David Blond. I absolutely love their Spring 2009 collection. Now these are the kind of dresses I would wear!




I definitely love the gold and black outfit. This is more inspiration for me to lose weight so I can wear these damn outfits. ..... And inspiration to get a job so I could one day pay for these kinds of outfits. Lmao.

Onto a totally different subject.... So what about the "Lizzie" part huh? Well on Disney channel they were showing Lizzie McQuire. I swear best ever show on Disney Channel. I have yet to see a show on there that has topped Lizzie McGuire. She dealt with real life problems that any girl, and maybe a guys could relate too. There was no magic or secret popstars. It was just real. I loved it when her cartoon self would pop out of no where, it was hilarious. Another thing I've noticed is that you had parents involved. Of course in every Disney show you have the parents of the main character there. But what about their friends?

For example, Wizards of Waverly Place, where in the world is Harper's parents?!?! Like, she is always over Alex's house! Doesn't her Mother want to, I don't know, mingle with Alex's parents every once in a while? Same with Hannah Montana, in one episode we met Lilly's Mother. But what about Oliver? Does he not have parents? Same with Sonng With A Chance, we saw Tony's Mother once, but what about Zora, Nicko, and Grady? Same with Jonas Brothers. In Lizzie McGuire I can recall three times where we saw Miranda's parents, and at least Gordo's Grandmother.

Sigh. The shows now on Disney make it almost seem like children rule the world. And people wonder why each generation is getting worse. This sounds so cliche, but children need to start going outside more and hanging with friends, outside. Doing something creative, or something. There's nothing wrong with watching television, but not in excess. I'm not dogging on these new shows either because I personally love Wizards, and Sonny. I'm just saying, Lizzie McGuire will always be the best. :)

Oo La La

On Monday I don't think I did anything. Just was on the computer all day and looked more into CCNY. Tuesday I did an All Star Workout on kickboxing. I felt great! :) Then Sammy came over and we hung out. Of course I took pictures. :) We painted on each other. lol.











I love my brother; no matter how much he annoys me. lol

Washing the Park xD

Yesterday was the first day of Spring Break. We went to the DDs and they weren't even open. Even though on their website they said they were going to be open. Sigh. Now I gotta wait till later this week. We went grocery shopping too at Wally Mart. I love Wally Mart. :) Then Sammy came over and we walked over to the park. We had a great time just talking and playing at the park. :)

I look so fat and weird. -_-


Isn't she beautiful? :)


Today we didn't go to church or anything for Easter. Instead I washed clothes all day and watched a season of ANTM. I'll probably be on the computer all night if I don't fall asleep. Lol.

Happy Easter!

First Day!

It's officially Spring Break! Today I'm not doing much of anything. We're going down to DDS so I can start the process of getting my permit. Then going to some thrift store and then Wally Mart! :)

Later on if it's hot enough, I'm going to go swimming. Hopefully Sammy can come too. :) What's everyone's plans to start the weekend off?

One More Day

Friday will be the last day before Spring Break! It's also Senior Skip Day at my school, so my Algebra 3 class and half my Creative Writing class will be empty! Lol. Right before first period some seniors released crickets and rats in the lunch room. It was hilarious but disgusting! Lol. It was the senior class prank, since it was April Fools Day! Did anyone play any pranks on anyone? I didn't do anything serious this year. :)

Today it's 81 degrees! : I'm so happy. The weather feels great, and it's still windy. I don't think it can get any awesomer! This Spring Break I'ma go swimming. Even if it's by myself! Lol. Sammy probably won't be sleeping over. That's such a downfall for my Spring Break! :( times two!

Idk if only lesbians watch "The L Word", but I started watching it again, and I still strongly dislike Tina. But I love Bette, she's beautiful! I know Carmen and Shane will get together. It's fate. Lol. I know this was totally random but it's just been on my mind. I don't have time to watch it in the time after I get home from picking up Nich and before Mother gets home. I know she'll dissaprove of e watching it! That's another thing I'll be doing Spring Break, marathons! Hahahaha.

Since NYU is so expensive, I don't think I'm going to go there as an undergraduate. I'll go there for graduate school. :) So first, I'll be going to CCNY!! The City College of New York. It's like 20,000 less than NYU. xD I'm taking my SAT's on May 1. I'm kind of nervous, I hope I do really really good. Wish me luck! :)

I really can't wait until Summer, but Spring will do fine for now. :)