Not So Good.

This summer isn't going so good. I've been annoyed by everything.

Ky probably won't be at summer camp this year. And she was the only reason I was working there.

My friend pissed me off with her ignorance which seemed to have controlled her mind, and she doesn't know how to follow her own voice since it's been drowned out by everyone else forcing her to think in one direction.

I have yet to see Jennifer. Mother dislikes her, and I've done so much this weekend that I know Mother will be like, "You've been away enough, and I don't want you to go see that 'bitch'."

The only good thing that has happened today was that I worked out. I did some boxing on the Wii, sit ups, and rode my bike around the neighborhood. I've been eating better too. I'm trying not to starve myself.

I need to get a "netbook". I'm going to need my own computer for senior year, my own personal one. If I don't get one for my birthday, I'll get one myself. I'll just have to get a real laptop when I go off to college. For the ones who don't know what a netbook is, it's like a mini laptop.


Happy Memorial Day Everyone!

Hope your week will go better than mine.

Forever Young

They hop they pretty ass up on that pretty ass car... They be talking bull shit & I be talking more shit.

Sorry I never got back on what I did in New York. We did get to see a Broadway show entitled Lend Me A Tenor. It was hilarious! I got Tony Shalhoub's autograph! [Pics later...] It was hilarious and I definitely recommend it! I used my Aunt's camera to take pictures but now she's off to India and I don't know when she'll be able to send me the pictures... =[ Hopefully soon.

I started work today also. I was so sad because Ky wasn't there. There's a lot of new camper's too. Goodness, more names I have to remember. I hope my old buddies will come back this week though. I wish I was able to get a real job this summer. But it's all good.

I have to study a lot this summer too. For my SATs I'll be taking again in October and then my French 3 class. Sigh, so much to do. And then I'll be taking at least two AP classes (I really want to take three though) and then I want to join clubs and play soccer in the Spring. Man I'ma be busy and I need a car. I'ma try to focus on my summer instead of my next school year, but I think that'll be impossible.

Anyway... Starting tomorrow [kind of.. explained later] I will be starting my diet and weight-loss program. I really just wanna run and exercise a lot and starve myself. That seems like the only way I can lose weight. Nana got the wii so I'll be doing the boxing on there because I love it!!!

Tomorrow Alycia (the bestest friend) is having a BBQ. I get to see her and a lo of my old friends from before I changed high schools. I can't wait. That's why I said kind of because I'll probably be eating or drinking sugary drinks at her house. Smh. But after that. I'm done. Wish me luck.

So if you love me baby this is how you let me know, don't ever let me go, that's how you let me know.. baby.

♥ing NY!!

First I'd like to say when I came to NY, I had $100.... By the second day, I had $21. -_- Fail! Anyway...

On my first day here, we went downtown and ate at Friday's. I got to see Times Square at night and I went into the biggest Toys R Us I have ever been in!

On yesterday we went to Central Park. It's beautiful there! I went to the famous Macy's and went to see NY Liberty vs ATL Dream at Madison Square Garden. NY Liberty lost. =[ To close out the day we went to the Empire State Building. It is sooo beautiful!

Today we visited colleges. We went on an information session and tour at NYU. I LOVE it there even more. That's where I want to be. We also went to CCNY, and Columbia U. But... ehh. Lol.

I'll have pictures much later. When my vacation is done.

Thrilled

I am about to leave for Atlanta. & tomorrow I'll be going to New York. =] Await my pictures! xD

Ready For Summer ♥

Three more days for me you guys! Until Summer! Man this Summer will be the SHIT! And I am so ready for it! Mother, Nicholas and I went to Wally Mart so I could get some "Summer clothes". Mainly, I got three men basketball shorts [two of which are reversible], and shirts! All of which I got this from the men's section. SMH. It feels good actually getting a small though. Lol. =] I got a Scooby shirt, a Snoopy shirt, a Mario one, and a Batman one! Yaaay!


And a special thanks to Berry. I can always count on her. I loves you! =]

♥ *&^$= My Mind

This weekend I was at my friend's Laura's birthday! She turned 18. I got to meet her two sisters and her parents. They are all so nice and welcoming! =] We went to the mall, watched movies, and played in the sprinklers. I slept over, I had a great time! Laura is one of the few I will be missing from Valdosta when I move back to Atlanta.


At Laura's party, we watched The Lovely Bones. I've been dying to see it, and it was an extremely good movie, however I was highly disappointed with the ending. I though they were going to capture that son of a bitch and then show all those girls going into the light towards heaven. I guess they kept it real tough. Sorry if I ruined the movie for anyone, but I definitely recommend this movie to anyone who has not watched it. =] Laura had two copies of the movie Avatar, so she let me have one. I finally get to see it soon! So happy! xD

When I came home I started watching this MTV show called True Life. It was an episode where these two girls thought they were the ugliest girls in the world, and they really weren't. They got plastic surgery to try to make them selves look "beautiful". I totally disagree with plastic surgery. I don't understand why anyone would get it. I guess the only exception was if you're face or body was deformed. But just to get a nose job or breast implants, that's disgusting, and it fucks with your body anyway. Both of the girls on this episode, still felt ugly after the plastic surgery. It's evil.

I saw this commercial for the iPad, it's like a computer without the keyboard. I'm like dazzled about it! It has internet, videos, pictures, applications, and more. It cost $499; I was surprised at that. I thought it was going to cost like $1,000. Check it out; Here!


So my Aunt Tonya and I decided that it would be best for me to make an itinerary for when I come up to New York. [I know that sounds like total common sense. xD] I will definitely be visiting NYU & Columbia. Hopefully CCNY. But I also want to see Times Square at night, the Empire State Building, Coney Island, go see Seventeen Magazine Headquarters, go to a Broadway show, see Central Park, go to Madison Square Garden, be in the audience for Good Morning America or MTV, go to the famous Macy's, visit a museum, see the Empire State Building, and so much more. Plus, going to New York will get me re-focused on my goals. =D

OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OMG! I FREAKIN PASSED MY HIGH SCHOOL GRADUATION TEST! LIKE I AM SOOOO FREAKING HAPPY! I mean I knew I was going to pass but, like I was scared for the social studies! BUT I PASSED! YESSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!

Slam Poetry.

A highlight of my life. These words just tear at my being.

Invisible ♥

family, friends, their love, its all the same
sometimes i think my destruction is my blame
these tears that fall from this ugly face
pull me deeper in this ever waiting disgrace
from neglect of this alien love
God hasnt showed me from above
of what my life could really be
from that girl who holds the right key
maybe its because im broken
my body, my mind, from every end
from the scars tearing at my fading sanity
to the insecurity that seeps from me
all i want is that burning touch
one i cannot live without such
those beautiful eyes searing into mine
that really makes my dim soul shine
the overpowering feeling of protection
covering my mind and heart from every section
but no one has the vision to see my invisible ♥
because of this, all i do is tear it apart
i wish i could take this ruby barrier
and force it down with all my fear
so i can finally know what this experience
that has been lost from my existence
of course with no heart at all
its easy to get back up when i fall

Wish List ♥

So I will be working this summer obviously, so with my earning I want to get a few things. I will be getting my first three wishes for sure! :)

1. Perm. of course it will be before school starts. I also want this color. But I doubt I'll be able to get it. I don't think it's good to bleach my hair, color it, then perm it. =/ [$? Depends on my Aunt. lol.]


2. Eyebrow Piercing. Mother said if I paid for it myself I can get it. :)[$64.24]


3. Planner. I'm really going to need a planner. I started getting a lot of homework this year, but I kept forgetting it. I need to start getting organized for when I go to University. I want a cute planner though. Like an All Time Low one! xD [$10]


4. Laptop. I think we all understand this. I prefer a yellow or purple one. Lol. [$Depends]


Happy Mother's Day To All The Mothers!

Weekend!

I'd like to thank Audrey for the I love your blog award!

1. Thank the person who nominated you.
2. Copy the award and place it on your blog.
3. Link the person that nominated you
4. Nominate 15 bloggers

Well I don't think I can pass it onto 15 bloggers but here I go! Tianna Jennifer Fabulous Cassiopeia Berry

It's Mother's Day weekend. Does anyone have something special for your Mom?

Surreal Art

Founder of surreal art; Andre Breton. This is my favorite kind of art.










Do you like art too?

Sunshine Award

Thank you Berry for tagging me. ^_^


share 7 interesting facts about yourself
- i would love to receive a white or black rose one day.
- i think pomegranate tastes like beer =/
- lucky charms are my FAVORITE cereal.
- i want to adopt a little girl one day :)
- i LOVE surreal art!!!!
- i personally think headphones is one of the best inventions ever.
- i think all star workouts is the answer to fitness.

question and answer

1.a vampire or a wizard?(and why)
Wizard. I could make all the rootbeer & tacos I needed. xD

2.if you could change one thing about you,what would it be?
My weight. And I am working on it. :)

3.would you rather live like a rockstar or president?
I can't chose. Rockstar for the adrenaline. But president so I can make some good choices and change America for the better. But then again my better might not be the same as everyone elses better. Ya know?

4.what's your favourite cartoon character?
GIR! & Fanboy/ Chum Chum. ^_^

5.what is your (most) guilty pleasure?
Most definitely anime. I watch ALL types. *wink wink* xD [lmfao]

6.if you were a song,what would it be?
Bears, Beets, Battlestar Galactica - A Bullet For Pretty Boy

7.what is your biggest dream?
Famous Magazine Journalist/ Editor. :)

8.do you prefer to be the one to ask questions or the one who answers them?
The one to ask. But I don't mind answering either.

9.what is your biggest turn on and turn off?
Turn on- Bright eyes. Turn off- HUGE boobs.

tag your friends [no set #] :)
1.Jennifer Fabulous
2.Audrey
3.Sher
4.Iva Messy
5.Manon


Btw, I got a new wallet! Since I never really gotten an allowence and I finally got my permit which counts for an ID, Mother decided I needed a real wallet, and I should stop being such a "tomboy". -_- But I really love this wallet! It's actually a Miley Cyrus brand. [Walmart for $10 ^_^] [Sorry for the bad pictures. =/





Do you guys see my Hot Topic Card? Lol. The best part is that it's purple inside!

Cute Little Dead Girl

Have you guys ever heard of her? Her name is Lenore. This girl named Sam introduced me to her n Friday. I fell in love. She's a comic, and she also has youtube video shows. Edgar Allen Poe is her original creator. Someone just took her and made her into comics and mini shows. I'm a "dark" person like my ole friend Edgar, so I love her! :)
This is the very first episode. :)


I went to my AP review day today. I really hope that I do good on my EOCT or at least good enough to past the class. It counts as half our freakin' grade. Like, wtf. Sigh. But it's okay. This is the last month! :)

So I'm kind of cutting people off for a while. I don't really have friends, except for the four who's really stuck by my side. The rest are associates and most of them screw me over anyway and then want to get mad when I tell them they're not my friends. I get called a "heartless bitch" a lot. I just tend to tell the truth blatantly. I used to be a major social butterfly all my life. Definitely when I was a freshman and most of my sophomore. But as I went through high school, I started really disliking people. Almost everyone. I think it's also the fact I'm in Georgia. Georgia is not for me. Everyone is the same and/or follow the crowd.

I think that has also driven my desire to go to New York. Besides New York being filled with bright lights and amazing opportunities, I believe the people will be better. Everyone is so diverse and everything, it'll be sooo refreshing. Being "different" won't get you killed unlike here. Man I just totally ranted. I just had to get that off my chest. :)

Are you guys ready for another week?

Smiles Baby

I changed my whole blog! Do you guys like it? I found those cute little pictures on a myspace layout website. Aren't they adorable? :) Simple & Clean (the new song) has never gotten old for me. I've listened to it at least 200 times every year! That's how much I love it. For some reason, it gives me hope.

So I took my SATs today. It wasn't as draining as uch as it was fustrating. Like the math section pissed me off. It was like, sooo stupid. But I don't want to say whether I think I did good or not. I rather not jinx myself. So, we'll just wait until I get my scores back!

That's another thing crossed off my "May List". So all I have is EOCTs, AP exams, projects and finals. Tomorrow I have an AP review day for our EOCT and exam! I really hope it will help me get a good score. I'm more worried about my EOCT because I have to actually pass that class. Piece of cake right? :)

Then off to New York! My aunt Tonya (who I'll be with up there) said we can even look at the Seventeen magazine building and can go in if we can. MAN I CANNOT WAIT!!! That's where I want to work one day. That is definitely one of my goals I will reach. :)

So I need to find other things to do in New York. I know there is more than enough to do, but I want to do the most... exciting stuff? Most educational and influential? I will be visiting colleges, Seventeen magazine, and definitely want to go see Times Square. I also want to go to a Broadway show. But what else is there. Like the must-sees or must-dos. Audrey (& others) help me out! :)

NO Emotional Ties To ANYONE =x