Fly With Me

This week feels so long. I'm a peer mediator at my school and this week I have to go to freshmen homeroom with another peer mediator and talk to them about Being the Change. Sigh. These freshmen are so unresponsive. Like you try to get them interacting with you, and see the importance of the topic, and they're just like, sitting there. I'm like, I was not this dumb when I was a freshman. It's ridiculous. My high school is so strict, and it's because the freshmen fight all the time. We're trying to get them to change so they can have more freedom when they become juniors and seniors. However, the way this is going, I don't see it happening. I have to do it for the rest of this week. Sigh.

I'm actually starting my "Get Healthy" plan! I'm starting to eat healthy, and actually work out! I feel so much better now. I'm tired of being fat. My weight goal is... umm. 120! That's as realistic as I'm going to get. Lol. I want to be like 110. But I doubt that'll happen. I'ma go check how much i weigh now... 153. -_-" I have 33 pounds to lose. But you know what? I'm so tired of being fat. 153 may not be fat to you, but it is to me. It's disgusting. It takes away at my confidence too. I'm sick of it. I'm making that change now. I can do it. :)

I'm starting to write poems again. I miss that let-out. I'm going to write a "life poem", it'll take me a while, but I'll eventually post it on here. It's Spring! I love being outside now. It's sunny and windy. Being outside in the fullness of Spring makes everything alright. I don't know how to explain that feeling. It's just amazing. :)

I saw that person today. It was kind of hard. Because my heart started beating fast and it was kind of that rush/high feeling again. But it wasn't to the point where it was unbearable. I can handle it, because I'm moving on. And I am happy with Sammy! :)

The silence is deafening.