I Used To Love Science

But now? I SUCK at it! Today we had the science part of the grad test and I felt sooo stupid! You guys have no idea. I'm an honors student, and I take AP classes, I've always been in the gifted program since second grade of elementary school. I should never feel dumb to the point where I think I failed. If I pass but didn't exceed expectations, it feels like I have failed anyway. Sigh. I better do good on the Social Studies section. Wish me luck, I will need it!

So I lost a friend last night(not like she died). It was really weird, because it was really sudden. What really surprised me though was that it actually hurt a little. I mean, I lose friends all the time. But this girl, I let into my inner circle and told her my hopes and dreams. I let her into my extremely tight circle in my heart (Alycia, Sarah & Tianna; I love you guys, lol!) and now we are not friends. It makes me almost regret. I feel like she's going to do something horrible. I don't know how to explain it. Like, I trusted her, with my secrets, and now we're no more. Sigh. That's why I never trust. I try, and see what happens? Nope, never again.

I saw this person today, the one I was talking about in my previous post. I hate it when I see them because it just makes me like them more. I just want to move on. It's just starting to get annoying, and when that happens, I usually start to numb myself again. Me and feelings? Yea, we don't get along to well. Sigh. But this person? The little things she does, makes me go crazy. Literally, I get all happy high kind of feeling. Ya know? I feel like I'm out of control.

Almost like I'm trying to walk in a straight line on the bottom of the ocean.