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Sunday, August 1, 2010
Follow My New Blog!
Wednesday, July 28, 2010
You Guys Are Going To Be Pissed
I made a new blog. Yes, that's right. I will start posting on August 1st. I'll post the link on here later & then send it to a few people who I adore, Alycia, Sarah, Berry, Jennifer, & Audrey. Lol, But please follow when I post! This blog will be for senior year and it's on a whole different account. So I wont be posting on this account ever again, Unfollow if you'd like. Lol.
Man I haven't blogged in forever!
This is my last week of work. Thank Lord! No more dumb bosses, ignorant coworkers or retarded kids. Lol, I know I sound harsh, but it's the truth.
I'll be getting a netbook! Yay.
IM SEVENTEEN NOW! yes!
Paul & I are still happily together! :)
For now that is all.
How is everyone else doing?
Man I haven't blogged in forever!
This is my last week of work. Thank Lord! No more dumb bosses, ignorant coworkers or retarded kids. Lol, I know I sound harsh, but it's the truth.
I'll be getting a netbook! Yay.
IM SEVENTEEN NOW! yes!
Paul & I are still happily together! :)
For now that is all.
How is everyone else doing?
Tuesday, July 6, 2010
America's Birthday
Did everyone have a good fourth?
On Saturday I went to Tennessee to celebrate.
Then on the fourth I went with Alycia [who came up for the fourth from Florida] to see Eclipse which was muuuuch better than Twilight & New Moon.
Then Paul picked me up from her house and we barbequed with Ryan, Conor and Chris. We even had a bonfire. :)
On Saturday I went to Tennessee to celebrate.
Then on the fourth I went with Alycia [who came up for the fourth from Florida] to see Eclipse which was muuuuch better than Twilight & New Moon.
Then Paul picked me up from her house and we barbequed with Ryan, Conor and Chris. We even had a bonfire. :)
Sunday, June 27, 2010
Clickie!
Lol, so this is kind of an update.
I went to visit Georgia State University. I absolutely loved it. I know I will get into that school. Maybe by 2015 I can move back up to New York, but right now, NY is just way too expensive for me. Period.
I finally made a youtube account that I will actually use. I was going to wait until I got my netbook and set it up from there. But I really could not wait. So far I've found this awesome girl who vlogs and her name is... Andrea. And here is her youtube channel. Click! So I really can't wait until I'm able to blog and ish. :)
My whole month of July is filled with either movie dates or hang out dates (not like that you guys, I'm still with Paul. =). It's like someone different every weekend or everytime I'm off. Isn't that awesome? Lol, it'll be even more awesome if I had my license. Anyways... I'm really ready for July 30th. So hopefully it'll go by fast.
Instead of getting a perm before school starts, I'm just going to get a coontail. :) I just have to blow dry my hair really good, and press it really good for it to be straight. But coontails are different. It's all thanks to Berry. :)
So that's all for now! :)
I went to visit Georgia State University. I absolutely loved it. I know I will get into that school. Maybe by 2015 I can move back up to New York, but right now, NY is just way too expensive for me. Period.
I finally made a youtube account that I will actually use. I was going to wait until I got my netbook and set it up from there. But I really could not wait. So far I've found this awesome girl who vlogs and her name is... Andrea. And here is her youtube channel. Click! So I really can't wait until I'm able to blog and ish. :)
My whole month of July is filled with either movie dates or hang out dates (not like that you guys, I'm still with Paul. =). It's like someone different every weekend or everytime I'm off. Isn't that awesome? Lol, it'll be even more awesome if I had my license. Anyways... I'm really ready for July 30th. So hopefully it'll go by fast.
Instead of getting a perm before school starts, I'm just going to get a coontail. :) I just have to blow dry my hair really good, and press it really good for it to be straight. But coontails are different. It's all thanks to Berry. :)
So that's all for now! :)
Sunday, June 20, 2010
Amazing Weekend.
Man I got to see all my people! Almost anyway, lol.
I went over my friend Kari's house and we ended up having a marker fight with each other. At first we were writing random stuff on her mirror and then she attacked me! Lol, when I left, it looked as if someone used me as a white board to teach a class! Lol, we caught up on a lot, and we were on facebook the whole time. XD
Then my foreva bestie Jennifer and her brother came and picked me up and I went over to her house. We walked over to some secret places [insider] and we made a video! Which I can't put on the internet because obviously it's her secret place! Lol. We took pictures, and ate biscuits. Lol. We talked about old times and talked about her son she's going to have in August, Traevon. I'll be a God Mother and I'm so excited! I'm happy for her. :)
From Jennifer's house I walked to my boyfriend's house. His name's Paul. :) As always I had a great time with him. We drank, again... Lol. We hung out with some friends and talked a lot. I even got in cool with his family. His Mother and Father are so cool. I love his brother Benny. He is hilarious! *its a harrier!* xD [Insider.] That night my sister Ruth came to check on me because she doing you know, the big sister thing. She been knew Paul and everything she just wanted to make sure I was doing right. xD I missed her so much and since she came to see me so late, we couldn't take a picture because it was dark outside. I got to see Skull, Tj, and Candy [=/] again. We did a lot of catching up and there were a lot of laughs. Lmao. *you'd make a sexy girl* xD [Insider.]
After Ruth and her crew left we just sat outside at the picnic table by the lake. We just talked and we really got to know each other more and how much we've changed since the year we've been apart. That night me and Paul didn't fall asleep until 4 that morning. We were in his lodge at first but at 6 we went up to the house to sleep in his brother's room because it had a bigger bed. When we finally woke up at 12 he made me breakfast. He cooked blueberry pancakes and an omelet. Now, I hate eggs, but Paul's omelet was sooo effin good! :)
That morning we hung out with his family more. I got to see a lot of pictures of him and his family when he was younger. It was hilarious. :) Then he took me on his golf cart around his property and throughout his woods. (His family owns a huge piece of land.) It was really all beautiful. He picked me two tulips, and one was yellow! =D He showed me where he has his bonfires and we fed the fishies. Lol. We even walked on this tree that had fallen into the lake. The tree was soo big, I was scared I was gonna fall off. But it was fun. :)
Then he had to take me back to Kari's house, so my Nana could pick me up. :( I may not be able to go out for the rest of the summer, so I'm not sure the next time I'll get to see him, or anyone lse for that matter. :( Paul knows this and we decided to make it work. :) That's why Paul is so amazing, he just understands. :) Anyways! When I was back at Kari's we talked to her friend through Skype and we were back on facebook talking about people. xD
Now I'm back home. Sigh. It's Father's Day and I gave my Grandaddy his present before I left Saturday. He went to Tennessee to visit his Dad. :) Now I'm watching Happy Lesson (anime). To sum it all up, I had an amazing weekend. :) I hope everyone else's was good too! ♥
I went over my friend Kari's house and we ended up having a marker fight with each other. At first we were writing random stuff on her mirror and then she attacked me! Lol, when I left, it looked as if someone used me as a white board to teach a class! Lol, we caught up on a lot, and we were on facebook the whole time. XD
Then my foreva bestie Jennifer and her brother came and picked me up and I went over to her house. We walked over to some secret places [insider] and we made a video! Which I can't put on the internet because obviously it's her secret place! Lol. We took pictures, and ate biscuits. Lol. We talked about old times and talked about her son she's going to have in August, Traevon. I'll be a God Mother and I'm so excited! I'm happy for her. :)
From Jennifer's house I walked to my boyfriend's house. His name's Paul. :) As always I had a great time with him. We drank, again... Lol. We hung out with some friends and talked a lot. I even got in cool with his family. His Mother and Father are so cool. I love his brother Benny. He is hilarious! *its a harrier!* xD [Insider.] That night my sister Ruth came to check on me because she doing you know, the big sister thing. She been knew Paul and everything she just wanted to make sure I was doing right. xD I missed her so much and since she came to see me so late, we couldn't take a picture because it was dark outside. I got to see Skull, Tj, and Candy [=/] again. We did a lot of catching up and there were a lot of laughs. Lmao. *you'd make a sexy girl* xD [Insider.]
After Ruth and her crew left we just sat outside at the picnic table by the lake. We just talked and we really got to know each other more and how much we've changed since the year we've been apart. That night me and Paul didn't fall asleep until 4 that morning. We were in his lodge at first but at 6 we went up to the house to sleep in his brother's room because it had a bigger bed. When we finally woke up at 12 he made me breakfast. He cooked blueberry pancakes and an omelet. Now, I hate eggs, but Paul's omelet was sooo effin good! :)
That morning we hung out with his family more. I got to see a lot of pictures of him and his family when he was younger. It was hilarious. :) Then he took me on his golf cart around his property and throughout his woods. (His family owns a huge piece of land.) It was really all beautiful. He picked me two tulips, and one was yellow! =D He showed me where he has his bonfires and we fed the fishies. Lol. We even walked on this tree that had fallen into the lake. The tree was soo big, I was scared I was gonna fall off. But it was fun. :)
Then he had to take me back to Kari's house, so my Nana could pick me up. :( I may not be able to go out for the rest of the summer, so I'm not sure the next time I'll get to see him, or anyone lse for that matter. :( Paul knows this and we decided to make it work. :) That's why Paul is so amazing, he just understands. :) Anyways! When I was back at Kari's we talked to her friend through Skype and we were back on facebook talking about people. xD
Now I'm back home. Sigh. It's Father's Day and I gave my Grandaddy his present before I left Saturday. He went to Tennessee to visit his Dad. :) Now I'm watching Happy Lesson (anime). To sum it all up, I had an amazing weekend. :) I hope everyone else's was good too! ♥
Thursday, June 17, 2010
Life
It seems like I can't make up my mind about anything anymore.
Like whether or not I like both boys or girls, or just girls. Just recently I've found out I apparently like both. I guess I just want to be loved in general. But I can be very picky. I'm not easily satisfied, and I get bored quickly. I'm just a bitch like that apparently.
And where I want to go for college. You guys know I was set on New York University for the past three years. But I've had a reality check this summer. I realized that I won't be there right after I graduate. I just won't. And the way I accepted it was surprising too. It's like I didn't mind, and I still don't. For at least my first two years of college, I'll be at Georgia State or University of Georgia. I'm praying for Georgia State though. We're going to go visit there next Thursday.
Sometimes I just feel like a hypocrite.
Or maybe I'm just really indecisive and I open my mouth before thinking it all through.
If this is how life is going to be all the time. I think I can wait little bit longer, so I can figure out myself.
Like whether or not I like both boys or girls, or just girls. Just recently I've found out I apparently like both. I guess I just want to be loved in general. But I can be very picky. I'm not easily satisfied, and I get bored quickly. I'm just a bitch like that apparently.
And where I want to go for college. You guys know I was set on New York University for the past three years. But I've had a reality check this summer. I realized that I won't be there right after I graduate. I just won't. And the way I accepted it was surprising too. It's like I didn't mind, and I still don't. For at least my first two years of college, I'll be at Georgia State or University of Georgia. I'm praying for Georgia State though. We're going to go visit there next Thursday.
Sometimes I just feel like a hypocrite.
Or maybe I'm just really indecisive and I open my mouth before thinking it all through.
If this is how life is going to be all the time. I think I can wait little bit longer, so I can figure out myself.
Sunday, June 13, 2010
I Fucked Up
Or I was fucked up. Either way, there is some kind of fucking up in there.
So yesterday I went over Paul's house around 2:30pm. I didn't get home until like past 12am the next day. I'm surprised I didn't get in a lot of trouble. She probably won't let me go out anywhere really...
Anyway we went swimming in his lake, went on a boat around his lake, drank a whole lot, and he threw a party for some DSA kids. Man we were all fucked up.
But, I really loved being with Paul. He was my boy bestie before I changed schools, and being with him again brought back some really old memories and last night I made some new ones.
I met a lot of his friends, and two friends that he always talked about and I finally got to meet them; Conor and Chris. They're awesome. I wanna go back next weekend.
I lost $10 and a ring while I was over there. Paul's bad luck for me. Lmao. I have pictures but... I'm on my Mother's laptop and I can't save pictures on here. Shit. You guys will see them when I get my own netbook and I put whatever the hell I want on there.
So yesterday I went over Paul's house around 2:30pm. I didn't get home until like past 12am the next day. I'm surprised I didn't get in a lot of trouble. She probably won't let me go out anywhere really...
Anyway we went swimming in his lake, went on a boat around his lake, drank a whole lot, and he threw a party for some DSA kids. Man we were all fucked up.
But, I really loved being with Paul. He was my boy bestie before I changed schools, and being with him again brought back some really old memories and last night I made some new ones.
I met a lot of his friends, and two friends that he always talked about and I finally got to meet them; Conor and Chris. They're awesome. I wanna go back next weekend.
I lost $10 and a ring while I was over there. Paul's bad luck for me. Lmao. I have pictures but... I'm on my Mother's laptop and I can't save pictures on here. Shit. You guys will see them when I get my own netbook and I put whatever the hell I want on there.
Thursday, June 10, 2010
Pedophile
sumemr camp has gotten better. I'm just getting used to my job. I think I hated it so much because my Ky wasn't there. :( I just miss her.
My sister pissed me the fuck off today. I am sad to find out even my own blood can be a fucking retard. Sigh. Smh.
Well we're going to Centenial park today in downtown Atlanta. That should be fun.
And tomorrow night I'ma go to the movies with some friends. Talk about stress reliever.
Since I won't be going to NYU right away, I've been looking at Georgia Southern (which I love so far) and UGA, which I heard has an amazing journalism program.
One good thing that has happened, is that I have a girlfriend. An amazing one at that. I'm happy with her. :) She has nothing to do with the title btw. Lmfao.
Saturday, June 5, 2010
Worser
Mother has been bitchin ever since she's got here. Non stop. She's gonna be here all week too, since my grandparents are going to be going on vaca. I hope this week goes by fast. And I hope she has to stay in Valdosta forever. I pray she doesn't find a job up here either.
Ohh yea... I won't be getting my eyebrow pierced. Mother's a liar and ruins everything.
OHH YEAAA! I'll be stuck in fuckin Georgia for college too. I'm being forced to get a job after school and the weekends so goodbye social life. And that means no clubs or sports to help me look good for colleges. My grades and tests alone won't get me into any good ones... So HELLO community college!
FML.
Ohh yea... I won't be getting my eyebrow pierced. Mother's a liar and ruins everything.
OHH YEAAA! I'll be stuck in fuckin Georgia for college too. I'm being forced to get a job after school and the weekends so goodbye social life. And that means no clubs or sports to help me look good for colleges. My grades and tests alone won't get me into any good ones... So HELLO community college!
FML.
Thursday, June 3, 2010
Worse
My job is getting worse by the day. I applied for Six Flags today, so hopefully I'll be getting an interview set up for that one. My name was put on the yearbook list for next year. So that's good.
But the main thing that has been bothering me is this girl... I don't talk about it a lot with anyone. But... she's my everything. I want to be with her forever, she really is perfect for me.
However, this is Blaze's life we're talking about. And Blaze is never allowed to be happy.
There is sooo many things wrong with me. My personality, my body, my face, my mind, my sanity, my humor, my intelligence. I can go on until humanity dies. But I found this one girl, who takes me all in. And we can't even be together without looking behind our backs every two seconds. We always have to hide.
I'm trying to figure out what I did that was so fucking wrong, so God can stop punishing me. Whatever I did God, I'm sorry. I am so sorry God. I didn't mean to make you mad at me. I repent.
But the main thing that has been bothering me is this girl... I don't talk about it a lot with anyone. But... she's my everything. I want to be with her forever, she really is perfect for me.
However, this is Blaze's life we're talking about. And Blaze is never allowed to be happy.
There is sooo many things wrong with me. My personality, my body, my face, my mind, my sanity, my humor, my intelligence. I can go on until humanity dies. But I found this one girl, who takes me all in. And we can't even be together without looking behind our backs every two seconds. We always have to hide.
I'm trying to figure out what I did that was so fucking wrong, so God can stop punishing me. Whatever I did God, I'm sorry. I am so sorry God. I didn't mean to make you mad at me. I repent.
Monday, May 31, 2010
Not So Good.
This summer isn't going so good. I've been annoyed by everything.
Ky probably won't be at summer camp this year. And she was the only reason I was working there.
My friend pissed me off with her ignorance which seemed to have controlled her mind, and she doesn't know how to follow her own voice since it's been drowned out by everyone else forcing her to think in one direction.
I have yet to see Jennifer. Mother dislikes her, and I've done so much this weekend that I know Mother will be like, "You've been away enough, and I don't want you to go see that 'bitch'."
The only good thing that has happened today was that I worked out. I did some boxing on the Wii, sit ups, and rode my bike around the neighborhood. I've been eating better too. I'm trying not to starve myself.
I need to get a "netbook". I'm going to need my own computer for senior year, my own personal one. If I don't get one for my birthday, I'll get one myself. I'll just have to get a real laptop when I go off to college. For the ones who don't know what a netbook is, it's like a mini laptop.
Happy Memorial Day Everyone!
Hope your week will go better than mine.
Ky probably won't be at summer camp this year. And she was the only reason I was working there.
My friend pissed me off with her ignorance which seemed to have controlled her mind, and she doesn't know how to follow her own voice since it's been drowned out by everyone else forcing her to think in one direction.
I have yet to see Jennifer. Mother dislikes her, and I've done so much this weekend that I know Mother will be like, "You've been away enough, and I don't want you to go see that 'bitch'."
The only good thing that has happened today was that I worked out. I did some boxing on the Wii, sit ups, and rode my bike around the neighborhood. I've been eating better too. I'm trying not to starve myself.
I need to get a "netbook". I'm going to need my own computer for senior year, my own personal one. If I don't get one for my birthday, I'll get one myself. I'll just have to get a real laptop when I go off to college. For the ones who don't know what a netbook is, it's like a mini laptop.
Hope your week will go better than mine.
Friday, May 28, 2010
Forever Young
Sorry I never got back on what I did in New York. We did get to see a Broadway show entitled Lend Me A Tenor. It was hilarious! I got Tony Shalhoub's autograph! [Pics later...] It was hilarious and I definitely recommend it! I used my Aunt's camera to take pictures but now she's off to India and I don't know when she'll be able to send me the pictures... =[ Hopefully soon.
I started work today also. I was so sad because Ky wasn't there. There's a lot of new camper's too. Goodness, more names I have to remember. I hope my old buddies will come back this week though. I wish I was able to get a real job this summer. But it's all good.
I have to study a lot this summer too. For my SATs I'll be taking again in October and then my French 3 class. Sigh, so much to do. And then I'll be taking at least two AP classes (I really want to take three though) and then I want to join clubs and play soccer in the Spring. Man I'ma be busy and I need a car. I'ma try to focus on my summer instead of my next school year, but I think that'll be impossible.
Anyway... Starting tomorrow [kind of.. explained later] I will be starting my diet and weight-loss program. I really just wanna run and exercise a lot and starve myself. That seems like the only way I can lose weight. Nana got the wii so I'll be doing the boxing on there because I love it!!!
Tomorrow Alycia (the bestest friend) is having a BBQ. I get to see her and a lo of my old friends from before I changed high schools. I can't wait. That's why I said kind of because I'll probably be eating or drinking sugary drinks at her house. Smh. But after that. I'm done. Wish me luck.
Monday, May 24, 2010
♥ing NY!!
First I'd like to say when I came to NY, I had $100.... By the second day, I had $21. -_- Fail! Anyway...
On my first day here, we went downtown and ate at Friday's. I got to see Times Square at night and I went into the biggest Toys R Us I have ever been in!
On yesterday we went to Central Park. It's beautiful there! I went to the famous Macy's and went to see NY Liberty vs ATL Dream at Madison Square Garden. NY Liberty lost. =[ To close out the day we went to the Empire State Building. It is sooo beautiful!
Today we visited colleges. We went on an information session and tour at NYU. I LOVE it there even more. That's where I want to be. We also went to CCNY, and Columbia U. But... ehh. Lol.
I'll have pictures much later. When my vacation is done.
On my first day here, we went downtown and ate at Friday's. I got to see Times Square at night and I went into the biggest Toys R Us I have ever been in!
On yesterday we went to Central Park. It's beautiful there! I went to the famous Macy's and went to see NY Liberty vs ATL Dream at Madison Square Garden. NY Liberty lost. =[ To close out the day we went to the Empire State Building. It is sooo beautiful!
Today we visited colleges. We went on an information session and tour at NYU. I LOVE it there even more. That's where I want to be. We also went to CCNY, and Columbia U. But... ehh. Lol.
I'll have pictures much later. When my vacation is done.
Friday, May 21, 2010
Thrilled
I am about to leave for Atlanta. & tomorrow I'll be going to New York. =] Await my pictures! xD
Tuesday, May 18, 2010
Ready For Summer ♥
Three more days for me you guys! Until Summer! Man this Summer will be the SHIT! And I am so ready for it! Mother, Nicholas and I went to Wally Mart so I could get some "Summer clothes". Mainly, I got three men basketball shorts [two of which are reversible], and shirts! All of which I got this from the men's section. SMH. It feels good actually getting a small though. Lol. =] I got a Scooby shirt, a Snoopy shirt, a Mario one, and a Batman one! Yaaay!
And a special thanks to Berry. I can always count on her. I loves you! =]
And a special thanks to Berry. I can always count on her. I loves you! =]
Saturday, May 15, 2010
♥ *&^$= My Mind
This weekend I was at my friend's Laura's birthday! She turned 18. I got to meet her two sisters and her parents. They are all so nice and welcoming! =] We went to the mall, watched movies, and played in the sprinklers. I slept over, I had a great time! Laura is one of the few I will be missing from Valdosta when I move back to Atlanta.
At Laura's party, we watched The Lovely Bones. I've been dying to see it, and it was an extremely good movie, however I was highly disappointed with the ending. I though they were going to capture that son of a bitch and then show all those girls going into the light towards heaven. I guess they kept it real tough. Sorry if I ruined the movie for anyone, but I definitely recommend this movie to anyone who has not watched it. =] Laura had two copies of the movie Avatar, so she let me have one. I finally get to see it soon! So happy! xD
When I came home I started watching this MTV show called True Life. It was an episode where these two girls thought they were the ugliest girls in the world, and they really weren't. They got plastic surgery to try to make them selves look "beautiful". I totally disagree with plastic surgery. I don't understand why anyone would get it. I guess the only exception was if you're face or body was deformed. But just to get a nose job or breast implants, that's disgusting, and it fucks with your body anyway. Both of the girls on this episode, still felt ugly after the plastic surgery. It's evil.
I saw this commercial for the iPad, it's like a computer without the keyboard. I'm like dazzled about it! It has internet, videos, pictures, applications, and more. It cost $499; I was surprised at that. I thought it was going to cost like $1,000. Check it out; Here!
So my Aunt Tonya and I decided that it would be best for me to make an itinerary for when I come up to New York. [I know that sounds like total common sense. xD] I will definitely be visiting NYU & Columbia. Hopefully CCNY. But I also want to see Times Square at night, the Empire State Building, Coney Island, go see Seventeen Magazine Headquarters, go to a Broadway show, see Central Park, go to Madison Square Garden, be in the audience for Good Morning America or MTV, go to the famous Macy's, visit a museum, see the Empire State Building, and so much more. Plus, going to New York will get me re-focused on my goals. =D
At Laura's party, we watched The Lovely Bones. I've been dying to see it, and it was an extremely good movie, however I was highly disappointed with the ending. I though they were going to capture that son of a bitch and then show all those girls going into the light towards heaven. I guess they kept it real tough. Sorry if I ruined the movie for anyone, but I definitely recommend this movie to anyone who has not watched it. =] Laura had two copies of the movie Avatar, so she let me have one. I finally get to see it soon! So happy! xD
When I came home I started watching this MTV show called True Life. It was an episode where these two girls thought they were the ugliest girls in the world, and they really weren't. They got plastic surgery to try to make them selves look "beautiful". I totally disagree with plastic surgery. I don't understand why anyone would get it. I guess the only exception was if you're face or body was deformed. But just to get a nose job or breast implants, that's disgusting, and it fucks with your body anyway. Both of the girls on this episode, still felt ugly after the plastic surgery. It's evil.
I saw this commercial for the iPad, it's like a computer without the keyboard. I'm like dazzled about it! It has internet, videos, pictures, applications, and more. It cost $499; I was surprised at that. I thought it was going to cost like $1,000. Check it out; Here!
So my Aunt Tonya and I decided that it would be best for me to make an itinerary for when I come up to New York. [I know that sounds like total common sense. xD] I will definitely be visiting NYU & Columbia. Hopefully CCNY. But I also want to see Times Square at night, the Empire State Building, Coney Island, go see Seventeen Magazine Headquarters, go to a Broadway show, see Central Park, go to Madison Square Garden, be in the audience for Good Morning America or MTV, go to the famous Macy's, visit a museum, see the Empire State Building, and so much more. Plus, going to New York will get me re-focused on my goals. =D
Thursday, May 13, 2010
OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
OMG! I FREAKIN PASSED MY HIGH SCHOOL GRADUATION TEST! LIKE I AM SOOOO FREAKING HAPPY! I mean I knew I was going to pass but, like I was scared for the social studies! BUT I PASSED! YESSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!
Wednesday, May 12, 2010
Monday, May 10, 2010
Invisible ♥
sometimes i think my destruction is my blame
these tears that fall from this ugly face
pull me deeper in this ever waiting disgrace
from neglect of this alien love
God hasnt showed me from above
of what my life could really be
from that girl who holds the right key
maybe its because im broken
my body, my mind, from every end
from the scars tearing at my fading sanity
to the insecurity that seeps from me
all i want is that burning touch
one i cannot live without such
those beautiful eyes searing into mine
that really makes my dim soul shine
the overpowering feeling of protection
covering my mind and heart from every section
but no one has the vision to see my invisible ♥
because of this, all i do is tear it apart
i wish i could take this ruby barrier
and force it down with all my fear
so i can finally know what this experience
that has been lost from my existence
of course with no heart at all
its easy to get back up when i fall
Sunday, May 9, 2010
Wish List ♥
So I will be working this summer obviously, so with my earning I want to get a few things. I will be getting my first three wishes for sure! :)
1. Perm. of course it will be before school starts. I also want this color. But I doubt I'll be able to get it. I don't think it's good to bleach my hair, color it, then perm it. =/ [$? Depends on my Aunt. lol.]
2. Eyebrow Piercing. Mother said if I paid for it myself I can get it. :)[$64.24]
3. Planner. I'm really going to need a planner. I started getting a lot of homework this year, but I kept forgetting it. I need to start getting organized for when I go to University. I want a cute planner though. Like an All Time Low one! xD [$10]
4. Laptop. I think we all understand this. I prefer a yellow or purple one. Lol. [$Depends]
Happy Mother's Day To All The Mothers!
Saturday, May 8, 2010
Weekend!
2. Copy the award and place it on your blog.
3. Link the person that nominated you
4. Nominate 15 bloggers
Thursday, May 6, 2010
Surreal Art
Tuesday, May 4, 2010
Sunshine Award
share 7 interesting facts about yourself
- i would love to receive a white or black rose one day.
- i think pomegranate tastes like beer =/
- lucky charms are my FAVORITE cereal.
- i want to adopt a little girl one day :)
- i LOVE surreal art!!!!
- i personally think headphones is one of the best inventions ever.
- i think all star workouts is the answer to fitness.
question and answer
1.a vampire or a wizard?(and why)
Wizard. I could make all the rootbeer & tacos I needed. xD
2.if you could change one thing about you,what would it be?
My weight. And I am working on it. :)
3.would you rather live like a rockstar or president?
I can't chose. Rockstar for the adrenaline. But president so I can make some good choices and change America for the better. But then again my better might not be the same as everyone elses better. Ya know?
4.what's your favourite cartoon character?
GIR! & Fanboy/ Chum Chum. ^_^
5.what is your (most) guilty pleasure?
Most definitely anime. I watch ALL types. *wink wink* xD [lmfao]
6.if you were a song,what would it be?
Bears, Beets, Battlestar Galactica - A Bullet For Pretty Boy
7.what is your biggest dream?
Famous Magazine Journalist/ Editor. :)
8.do you prefer to be the one to ask questions or the one who answers them?
The one to ask. But I don't mind answering either.
9.what is your biggest turn on and turn off?
Turn on- Bright eyes. Turn off- HUGE boobs.
tag your friends [no set #] :)
1.Jennifer Fabulous
2.Audrey
3.Sher
4.Iva Messy
5.Manon
Btw, I got a new wallet! Since I never really gotten an allowence and I finally got my permit which counts for an ID, Mother decided I needed a real wallet, and I should stop being such a "tomboy". -_- But I really love this wallet! It's actually a Miley Cyrus brand. [Walmart for $10 ^_^] [Sorry for the bad pictures. =/
Sunday, May 2, 2010
Cute Little Dead Girl
Have you guys ever heard of her? Her name is Lenore. This girl named Sam introduced me to her n Friday. I fell in love. She's a comic, and she also has youtube video shows. Edgar Allen Poe is her original creator. Someone just took her and made her into comics and mini shows. I'm a "dark" person like my ole friend Edgar, so I love her! :)
This is the very first episode. :)
I went to my AP review day today. I really hope that I do good on my EOCT or at least good enough to past the class. It counts as half our freakin' grade. Like, wtf. Sigh. But it's okay. This is the last month! :)
So I'm kind of cutting people off for a while. I don't really have friends, except for the four who's really stuck by my side. The rest are associates and most of them screw me over anyway and then want to get mad when I tell them they're not my friends. I get called a "heartless bitch" a lot. I just tend to tell the truth blatantly. I used to be a major social butterfly all my life. Definitely when I was a freshman and most of my sophomore. But as I went through high school, I started really disliking people. Almost everyone. I think it's also the fact I'm in Georgia. Georgia is not for me. Everyone is the same and/or follow the crowd.
I think that has also driven my desire to go to New York. Besides New York being filled with bright lights and amazing opportunities, I believe the people will be better. Everyone is so diverse and everything, it'll be sooo refreshing. Being "different" won't get you killed unlike here. Man I just totally ranted. I just had to get that off my chest. :)
Are you guys ready for another week?
I went to my AP review day today. I really hope that I do good on my EOCT or at least good enough to past the class. It counts as half our freakin' grade. Like, wtf. Sigh. But it's okay. This is the last month! :)
So I'm kind of cutting people off for a while. I don't really have friends, except for the four who's really stuck by my side. The rest are associates and most of them screw me over anyway and then want to get mad when I tell them they're not my friends. I get called a "heartless bitch" a lot. I just tend to tell the truth blatantly. I used to be a major social butterfly all my life. Definitely when I was a freshman and most of my sophomore. But as I went through high school, I started really disliking people. Almost everyone. I think it's also the fact I'm in Georgia. Georgia is not for me. Everyone is the same and/or follow the crowd.
I think that has also driven my desire to go to New York. Besides New York being filled with bright lights and amazing opportunities, I believe the people will be better. Everyone is so diverse and everything, it'll be sooo refreshing. Being "different" won't get you killed unlike here. Man I just totally ranted. I just had to get that off my chest. :)
Saturday, May 1, 2010
Smiles Baby
I changed my whole blog! Do you guys like it? I found those cute little pictures on a myspace layout website. Aren't they adorable? :) Simple & Clean (the new song) has never gotten old for me. I've listened to it at least 200 times every year! That's how much I love it. For some reason, it gives me hope.
So I took my SATs today. It wasn't as draining as uch as it was fustrating. Like the math section pissed me off. It was like, sooo stupid. But I don't want to say whether I think I did good or not. I rather not jinx myself. So, we'll just wait until I get my scores back!
That's another thing crossed off my "May List". So all I have is EOCTs, AP exams, projects and finals. Tomorrow I have an AP review day for our EOCT and exam! I really hope it will help me get a good score. I'm more worried about my EOCT because I have to actually pass that class. Piece of cake right? :)
Then off to New York! My aunt Tonya (who I'll be with up there) said we can even look at the Seventeen magazine building and can go in if we can. MAN I CANNOT WAIT!!! That's where I want to work one day. That is definitely one of my goals I will reach. :)
So I need to find other things to do in New York. I know there is more than enough to do, but I want to do the most... exciting stuff? Most educational and influential? I will be visiting colleges, Seventeen magazine, and definitely want to go see Times Square. I also want to go to a Broadway show. But what else is there. Like the must-sees or must-dos. Audrey (& others) help me out! :)
NO Emotional Ties To ANYONE =x
So I took my SATs today. It wasn't as draining as uch as it was fustrating. Like the math section pissed me off. It was like, sooo stupid. But I don't want to say whether I think I did good or not. I rather not jinx myself. So, we'll just wait until I get my scores back!
That's another thing crossed off my "May List". So all I have is EOCTs, AP exams, projects and finals. Tomorrow I have an AP review day for our EOCT and exam! I really hope it will help me get a good score. I'm more worried about my EOCT because I have to actually pass that class. Piece of cake right? :)
Then off to New York! My aunt Tonya (who I'll be with up there) said we can even look at the Seventeen magazine building and can go in if we can. MAN I CANNOT WAIT!!! That's where I want to work one day. That is definitely one of my goals I will reach. :)
So I need to find other things to do in New York. I know there is more than enough to do, but I want to do the most... exciting stuff? Most educational and influential? I will be visiting colleges, Seventeen magazine, and definitely want to go see Times Square. I also want to go to a Broadway show. But what else is there. Like the must-sees or must-dos. Audrey (& others) help me out! :)
Wednesday, April 28, 2010
Update ^_^
I know lately all I have been doing is posting pictures. That's because I haven't really had time to really blog. But it seems like I get more comments on those than I do when I actually blog. xD
So a lot has been on my mind lately. And I've been uber stressed. Mainly because I have so much to do. Two projects. Finals and EOCT. SATs and AP exams. And making sure I get this counselour job at this summer camp. I just can't imagine how my Senior year will be. =/
Then on top of all of that there is one situation that has me very confused. And the other one, well, let's just say I'm one of the biggest fuck ups ever. Sigh. Definitely no love in this air. Completely stale. xD
So from all of this I have an ulcer from stress! =0 It hurts to even eat. Ugh. So tomorrow I'm staying home from school with Mother. I'm finaly going to get my permit and then we're going to have a Saw movie marathon! Or a Harry Potter one, because I can't find the Saw ones online. =/
The only things I'm looking forward to is going to New York after school lets out and then spending summer in Atlanta. Hopefully I'll be stayinmg there and I can convince Mother to let me go to my old school so I can graduate with at least two of my best friends.
I am obsessed with this song! How is everyone doing?
Do It/ TY; Nelly Furtado.
So a lot has been on my mind lately. And I've been uber stressed. Mainly because I have so much to do. Two projects. Finals and EOCT. SATs and AP exams. And making sure I get this counselour job at this summer camp. I just can't imagine how my Senior year will be. =/
Then on top of all of that there is one situation that has me very confused. And the other one, well, let's just say I'm one of the biggest fuck ups ever. Sigh. Definitely no love in this air. Completely stale. xD
So from all of this I have an ulcer from stress! =0 It hurts to even eat. Ugh. So tomorrow I'm staying home from school with Mother. I'm finaly going to get my permit and then we're going to have a Saw movie marathon! Or a Harry Potter one, because I can't find the Saw ones online. =/
The only things I'm looking forward to is going to New York after school lets out and then spending summer in Atlanta. Hopefully I'll be stayinmg there and I can convince Mother to let me go to my old school so I can graduate with at least two of my best friends.
I am obsessed with this song! How is everyone doing?
Monday, April 26, 2010
I ♥ HP!
Last weekend we went to the mall and I got to get two shirts. Both on Clearence from Hot Topic. Seeing that I'm such a dork, I love Harry Potter, but hey, who doesn't? Today was an awesome day actually. Until I got home of course. Then I started thinking wayy too hard. Quite annoying.
Times like these, dark times, they do funny things to people. They can tear them apart.
Thursday, April 22, 2010
Blurr
Today was such a blur. Just full of bitching. pictures. love notes. roses. && of course thinking.
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
Likee, Idk.
I took a practice SAT out of my 2010 study SAT book. I failed that ish. I don't think I'll be going to NYU. I PRAY I at least make it to CCNY. If not either, Idk wtf I'ma do. Seriously. I got like the effin lowest score ever. Sigh, wtf am I gonna do. I got my permit test this Saturday, next SaturdayI got SATs. Then the Friday after that I got AP exams. Then one free week. And then Thursday and Friday I have finals and EOCT. Sigh. SO MUCH. Talk about, the life of a junior. I should soo write a book on that. Among all of that, I'm thinking wayy too much. Sigh.
However I did get to get some chill time. Chelsea, Nicholas, and I went swimming today. Later, Chelsea's boyfriend came too. But he didn't swim. They look adorable though. :) I forgot to take pictures! Darn! Lol.
Someone else did make me happy today. But their name will not be given. The end. ♥
They call me little monster
How is everyone's week coming along?
However I did get to get some chill time. Chelsea, Nicholas, and I went swimming today. Later, Chelsea's boyfriend came too. But he didn't swim. They look adorable though. :) I forgot to take pictures! Darn! Lol.
Someone else did make me happy today. But their name will not be given. The end. ♥
Sunday, April 18, 2010
Atlanta ♥
Man I really miss it there. Like, just going back, I realized the trees are greener, the air is cleaner, the people THINK. Sigh. But all is good because Nicholas and I will be spending our sumemr up there. I will be working at the summer camp on the weekdays and hopefully I can find another job during the weekends. Either way I'll be up there with friends.
I went to the NYU meeting and I re-learned everything I already knew. Lol. I just pray to God, I get into the university. My life would be set after that. Then after that I went to my best friend's house and I went to her interview thing for this documentary. She models. :) Then we went to the mall and took pictures and were all ninja like on the Asians! Man I miss seeing Asians! So then we went back to her house and watched Woulverine. It was my first time seeing it, and I loved it. It was sooo messed up though! We started to watch Princess and the Frog, but then I had to leave. :(
When I got home I relaxed with the family. I missed them so freaking much. I just realized that I didn't even get any pictures with them. Ugh. But anyway, me and my uncle watched Zombieland. That movie is SOOO hilarious! At least with my uncle narrating it. I would definitely recommend seeing that movie if you haven't already. We started to watch Men Who Stare At Goats, but either I was really tired, or it was really boring, because I went up to bed.
But now I am back home in hell hole. :) Sigh one more month. And then one more year. I am counting down!
I went to the NYU meeting and I re-learned everything I already knew. Lol. I just pray to God, I get into the university. My life would be set after that. Then after that I went to my best friend's house and I went to her interview thing for this documentary. She models. :) Then we went to the mall and took pictures and were all ninja like on the Asians! Man I miss seeing Asians! So then we went back to her house and watched Woulverine. It was my first time seeing it, and I loved it. It was sooo messed up though! We started to watch Princess and the Frog, but then I had to leave. :(
When I got home I relaxed with the family. I missed them so freaking much. I just realized that I didn't even get any pictures with them. Ugh. But anyway, me and my uncle watched Zombieland. That movie is SOOO hilarious! At least with my uncle narrating it. I would definitely recommend seeing that movie if you haven't already. We started to watch Men Who Stare At Goats, but either I was really tired, or it was really boring, because I went up to bed.
But now I am back home in hell hole. :) Sigh one more month. And then one more year. I am counting down!
Thursday, April 15, 2010
Cherry On Top Award.
List 3 things I love about myself:
-I can screamo sing. xD
-I have mad awesome soccer skills. :)
-When I'm aiming for my goal, I really throw myself into it. :)
Post a picture I love:
Tag five people to pass this award to:
-Berry
-Melanie
-Tianna
-Cassiopeia
-Uh, I Think I'm Stuck
Today was pretty drama filled. Sigh. But I'm going to Atlanta tomorrow. I get to at least see Alycia. How fucking awesome right? :) Tomorrow is 4/16. It's the Day Of Silence. On the National Day of Silence hundreds of thousands of students nationwide take a vow of silence to bring attention to anti-LGBT name-calling, bullying and harassment in their schools. I've never been harrased about it to the extreme, thank Lord. But I'm fighting for everyone who has.
Wednesday, April 14, 2010
Bright Side Award. :)
-My Best Friends; [Alycia/Sarah/Jennifer&Tianna]
-Soccer
-Music [especially Screamo when I'm uber pissed. Lol]
-Rootbeer. :)
-Photography
-When people give me nice long bear hugs. :)
-Tacos xD
-Blogger
-Teddie
-Late Night Phone Convos.
2.Give a top 5 list of trivia or facts about yourself
-I am an anarchist.
-I pretty much hate all the people I don't know.
-I have trust issues.
-I am an adrenaline junkie.
-I am obsessed with NYU.
3.Share the award with only 5 friends and ask them to do the same thing.
-Tianna
-Jennifer
-Audrey
-Sher
-Heather
5.Link the blogs you choose and link the blog of the person who awarded you.
-Done. :)
Tuesday, April 13, 2010
I Am Single
Yes, it's true. She wasn't happy, and if she was, she didn't show it. It didn't last long at all, and even though it's over, I hope me and her can be friends. At the same time, I can honestly say that I'm a bit happy about it. Like something lifeted off my shoulders. I was the only one trying. But it'll all be okay. There has to be one decent girl out there. :)
On the bright side I will be going back up to Atlanta for like, a day. Lol. NYU personally invited me to attend one of their information sessions since I've been stalking them like crazy. Lol. They travel the US for the people who can't come to NY. Even though I will be going up there anyway in either May or August. :)
How has everyone been doing? :)
On the bright side I will be going back up to Atlanta for like, a day. Lol. NYU personally invited me to attend one of their information sessions since I've been stalking them like crazy. Lol. They travel the US for the people who can't come to NY. Even though I will be going up there anyway in either May or August. :)
How has everyone been doing? :)
Sunday, April 11, 2010
Fernandina Beach
I love Fernandina Beach. I wanna get a beach house there. The water was cold, but the sun made it awesome. We even went to the beach during the night and layed down in the sand and looked up at the stars. Absolutely beautiful. We had gotten the cameras you have to develop so I will post more pictures later. :)
Wednesday, April 7, 2010
The Blond Lizzie
I was watching America's Next Top Model with Mother earlier this week and you know they obviolusly have all the major top designers on there. So Mother says, "You know Blaze, you should really be studying these since you want to work on Seventeen Magazine and be a journalist and all." So I'm like, yea... yea I really need to get on top of my stuff. Lol. It's weird because most of the time I'm more tomboyish. The most make up I've put on is eyeliner. I can't even put lipstick on right. Haha. I also don't always like wearing dresses and heels. I rather wear baggy clothes or skinny jeans, and the occasional skirt. I just hate being girly. But I'm going to have to start studying this, and seeing that I'm already 16, I'm kind of late.
My goal to be a magazine journalist/ editor was inspired by Cosmo Girl. However, that magazine was closed. I went through depression for like two weeks after that. That magazine just changed my life. So what's the second best? [to me] Seventeen Magazine. Well anyway I was looking at these designers called Phillipe & David Blond. I absolutely love their Spring 2009 collection. Now these are the kind of dresses I would wear!
I definitely love the gold and black outfit. This is more inspiration for me to lose weight so I can wear these damn outfits. ..... And inspiration to get a job so I could one day pay for these kinds of outfits. Lmao.
Onto a totally different subject.... So what about the "Lizzie" part huh? Well on Disney channel they were showing Lizzie McQuire. I swear best ever show on Disney Channel. I have yet to see a show on there that has topped Lizzie McGuire. She dealt with real life problems that any girl, and maybe a guys could relate too. There was no magic or secret popstars. It was just real. I loved it when her cartoon self would pop out of no where, it was hilarious. Another thing I've noticed is that you had parents involved. Of course in every Disney show you have the parents of the main character there. But what about their friends?
For example, Wizards of Waverly Place, where in the world is Harper's parents?!?! Like, she is always over Alex's house! Doesn't her Mother want to, I don't know, mingle with Alex's parents every once in a while? Same with Hannah Montana, in one episode we met Lilly's Mother. But what about Oliver? Does he not have parents? Same with Sonng With A Chance, we saw Tony's Mother once, but what about Zora, Nicko, and Grady? Same with Jonas Brothers. In Lizzie McGuire I can recall three times where we saw Miranda's parents, and at least Gordo's Grandmother.
Sigh. The shows now on Disney make it almost seem like children rule the world. And people wonder why each generation is getting worse. This sounds so cliche, but children need to start going outside more and hanging with friends, outside. Doing something creative, or something. There's nothing wrong with watching television, but not in excess. I'm not dogging on these new shows either because I personally love Wizards, and Sonny. I'm just saying, Lizzie McGuire will always be the best. :)
My goal to be a magazine journalist/ editor was inspired by Cosmo Girl. However, that magazine was closed. I went through depression for like two weeks after that. That magazine just changed my life. So what's the second best? [to me] Seventeen Magazine. Well anyway I was looking at these designers called Phillipe & David Blond. I absolutely love their Spring 2009 collection. Now these are the kind of dresses I would wear!
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I definitely love the gold and black outfit. This is more inspiration for me to lose weight so I can wear these damn outfits. ..... And inspiration to get a job so I could one day pay for these kinds of outfits. Lmao.
Onto a totally different subject.... So what about the "Lizzie" part huh? Well on Disney channel they were showing Lizzie McQuire. I swear best ever show on Disney Channel. I have yet to see a show on there that has topped Lizzie McGuire. She dealt with real life problems that any girl, and maybe a guys could relate too. There was no magic or secret popstars. It was just real. I loved it when her cartoon self would pop out of no where, it was hilarious. Another thing I've noticed is that you had parents involved. Of course in every Disney show you have the parents of the main character there. But what about their friends?
For example, Wizards of Waverly Place, where in the world is Harper's parents?!?! Like, she is always over Alex's house! Doesn't her Mother want to, I don't know, mingle with Alex's parents every once in a while? Same with Hannah Montana, in one episode we met Lilly's Mother. But what about Oliver? Does he not have parents? Same with Sonng With A Chance, we saw Tony's Mother once, but what about Zora, Nicko, and Grady? Same with Jonas Brothers. In Lizzie McGuire I can recall three times where we saw Miranda's parents, and at least Gordo's Grandmother.
Sigh. The shows now on Disney make it almost seem like children rule the world. And people wonder why each generation is getting worse. This sounds so cliche, but children need to start going outside more and hanging with friends, outside. Doing something creative, or something. There's nothing wrong with watching television, but not in excess. I'm not dogging on these new shows either because I personally love Wizards, and Sonny. I'm just saying, Lizzie McGuire will always be the best. :)
Oo La La
On Monday I don't think I did anything. Just was on the computer all day and looked more into CCNY. Tuesday I did an All Star Workout on kickboxing. I felt great! :) Then Sammy came over and we hung out. Of course I took pictures. :) We painted on each other. lol.
I love my brother; no matter how much he annoys me. lol
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